I'm off to bed

I'm stuck in a hotel and I can hear drunk people laughing. They sound like there having fun. I can't remember what's fun about alcohol anymore. It's wierd, I remember the memorys of it but not what it's like. It's like trying to imagine what taking drugs is like based on what ive seen on tv. LOL. Night night

2 posts in one day! (it's down hill now!)

Well it's official we now have less days to start drinking than since we've stopped!! As expected it's become harder to stay strong! I said this would happen. I knew it would because when I quit for a month the first 2 weeks were easy but the last 2 got harder as the count down began. What I quite like is that my wife also feels that way. I think it's easier to do things as a team and if we both feel that way I really think it will stop us lapsing as the other one isn't acting superior and saying 'it's easy' etc.

It's funny though, although I'd like a brandy or scotch, I'm just not interested in getting drunk anymore. Perhaps it's because the memory of what it's like fades and is replaced by the reality of what others look like drunk. It probably doesn't help watching shows like 'booze britain'. I really do wonder if my born again tea total (ish) attitude will last for long after August??

I think I'm going a little (more) crazy...

I've said before that I think not drinking alcohol can make you more confident. You know what your doing so your ok with make a fool of youself. I also think the same is true for fun. It started to snow the other day and I found myself at a wallpaper shop buying a sledge!! It was good fun actually, but it does make me wonder if I would have done that had I been filling my weekends with beer.

I passed my exam!!!. As mentioned previously I would have failed this exam if I had have been drinking as I would have had a few beers or a bottle of wine and not had the solid 8 hour revision/learning I had instead. If nothing else being tea total made me a better prospect at work!

Some things are really better done drunk...

I was invited to a friend 30th a while back and the party was last weekend. It was fancy dress and was originally supposed to be in a social club which would have been fine as you can 'hide' in some seats, have a laugh at the costumes and leave when your ready. What actually happened was it was moved to the house, everyone knew eachother and I was dressed in a lycra jumpsuit (elton john) with my wife as Marolyn Monroe. oh dear! Now I'm not saying it would have been any less aquard if I had have been drunk but perhaps I would have cared a little less. We made our exit about 11 and i think eveyone else (who knew eachother) had a great time, and I'm really glad, but NEVER NEVER again!!! ;-)

182 days down, 182 days to go!!!

Wow its wierd because in some ways its flown and it other ways it feels like I cant remember drinking. I feel a renewed determination today! Also im on operation 'six pack' for the holiday in June.
Got a text from a friend last week "I must have been sick last night. Theres sick in the sink although I dont remember...hope it was me anyway". Feeling smug :-)