Just had a rather nasty email from one of the family. They're drunk right now and in a pretty nasty place (physical place/location not emotional place, although I guess both is true tonight!).
I hate angry drunks. If you've been like that more than once just stop drinking...seriously. Sometimes I hate booze...(other times I drink it ;-)
Wednesday 28 January 2009
Bargaining with the devil...
Recently its been tougher than the initial few months. We've had a lot to contend with and sometimes it would be nice to have a few beers to unwind. I found myself saying the other day 'if 'x' happens then im having the day off the challenge' and I really meant it. Now 'X' is a good thing and so really there is no reason to drink as that news would be enough so I can only assume in a moment of weakness I was giving myself an excuse to break with the challenge...bad me, bad!
I have been thinking about that final day though...Its a Friday (7th August) and Ive been thinking about doing it one of two ways....getting very very drunk and videoing it for your amusement, or just having a civilised glass of wine with a meal. Long term I really want to stick to the civilised option but it might be some fun to do the former...I'll have earned it! Although I will be staying home that day as I suspect 2 beers and Ill not be able to walk!!
I have to admit its been like quitting smoking. First month I thought about it alot, next 4 or 5 were fine (it never fully left my mind on weekends because we were in pubs etc but it was fine) and now after nearly 6 months its been tougher. I suppose the only reason I dont is I hate to loose ;-)
I have been thinking about that final day though...Its a Friday (7th August) and Ive been thinking about doing it one of two ways....getting very very drunk and videoing it for your amusement, or just having a civilised glass of wine with a meal. Long term I really want to stick to the civilised option but it might be some fun to do the former...I'll have earned it! Although I will be staying home that day as I suspect 2 beers and Ill not be able to walk!!
I have to admit its been like quitting smoking. First month I thought about it alot, next 4 or 5 were fine (it never fully left my mind on weekends because we were in pubs etc but it was fine) and now after nearly 6 months its been tougher. I suppose the only reason I dont is I hate to loose ;-)
Thursday 22 January 2009
Just sat an exam...
I'm just updating via my iPhone today as I'm on a train coming back from an 'ITIL' exam in London. I'm so glad I'm not drinking because I know I'd have had a bottle of wine or at least a few beers! Instead I spend 8 hours watching a training package on the subject and since I'm currently wondering if I scraped a pass, I think it's best I spent my time revising and getting a proper sleep. I'm fact should I pass, I'll have to say that I would had failed for sure if I'd had a drink.
Got a funeral tomorrow. It's going to be wierd not drinking at a wake. Feels strange even commenting on it, but that's what people do at a wake and it will feel aquard telling people who offer me a drink why. Perhaps I'll say 'I'm driving...probably will anyway. Drinking aside, it's going to be emotionally tough tomorrow
Got a funeral tomorrow. It's going to be wierd not drinking at a wake. Feels strange even commenting on it, but that's what people do at a wake and it will feel aquard telling people who offer me a drink why. Perhaps I'll say 'I'm driving...probably will anyway. Drinking aside, it's going to be emotionally tough tomorrow
Friday 16 January 2009
Its not been a good new year so far...it better get better thats all I can say!
Without going in to any detail I dont think I've even felt more stressed than I do right now. Im a pretty laid back person and I think thats why I dont often get stressed but hardly a minute goes by over the past few weeks that I haven't felt stress. I have to admit that if ever I was going to be tempted to have a drink early (i.e. before August 09) it was going to be the past few weeks. Ive even started to crave cigarettes! Ive not had a cigarette for over a year and a half and I've been tempted to start smoking this week. Its only because I've read Alan Carr's book that I know I wouldnt get anything out of it. The 'relief' I remember from having a cigarette was only relieving the physical addiction and since i dont feel that anymore theres little point...thanks Alan! Hope you enjoy it up there!
As for drinking I must admit there have been times I've thought 'stuff it'. I mean its not like I'm an alcoholic and I only entered into this whole thing light-hearted, but the problem is I'm stubborn and I dont think I could quit quitting if I wanted to...I'd feel like I'd let myself down too much. I think my stubbornness is the reason I know everything is going to be ok in the long run. I'll just keep plodding on until I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and things return to normal in my life...I like normal!
I spoilt myself the other day and bought an xbox 360. The money we save on alcohol makes me not feel too guilty about it. We got 'Lips' the karaoke game. Normally I would never sing in public when drinking as I know what a fool I'd look, however like most things when sober...if you choose to look a fool then its not so scary so I've had a great laugh playing it with my wife and my friends.
As for drinking I must admit there have been times I've thought 'stuff it'. I mean its not like I'm an alcoholic and I only entered into this whole thing light-hearted, but the problem is I'm stubborn and I dont think I could quit quitting if I wanted to...I'd feel like I'd let myself down too much. I think my stubbornness is the reason I know everything is going to be ok in the long run. I'll just keep plodding on until I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and things return to normal in my life...I like normal!
I spoilt myself the other day and bought an xbox 360. The money we save on alcohol makes me not feel too guilty about it. We got 'Lips' the karaoke game. Normally I would never sing in public when drinking as I know what a fool I'd look, however like most things when sober...if you choose to look a fool then its not so scary so I've had a great laugh playing it with my wife and my friends.
Monday 5 January 2009
New Year, New Determination!
Well we managed to have a nice Christmas and New Year and I really didnt miss alcohol one bit. There was perhaps once that I thought it would have been nice to drown my sorrows after a few nightmare ish days, but thats hardly a reason to drink even when I drank before this challenge, so its totally no reason to drink now!
On new years eve I really wanted a cigar which I think was more about tradition than my smoking addiction (havent smoked in 1 year 5 months). I think its probably best I didnt have one as its probably a 'gateway' to cigarettes.
A few days ago we went to a neighbours party. Got the usual questions as to why we werent drinking etc etc (we live in a quiet 'middle class' street and they have seen me dancing on the garage roof at one of our parties!). We gave them the abridged explanation of having too many weddings last year and getting sick of drinking and they left it at that. It was a nice night and its always nice to see them as they have been friends for years and always have funny storys to tell. As is becoming the norm we were the first to leave! I also think our not drinking is having a knock on effect to other people. we got asked to a friends house for a night in and although most people couldnt make it I know that if I had have been drinking they would have drank more than the couple of cans they did...Interesting!
On new years eve I really wanted a cigar which I think was more about tradition than my smoking addiction (havent smoked in 1 year 5 months). I think its probably best I didnt have one as its probably a 'gateway' to cigarettes.
A few days ago we went to a neighbours party. Got the usual questions as to why we werent drinking etc etc (we live in a quiet 'middle class' street and they have seen me dancing on the garage roof at one of our parties!). We gave them the abridged explanation of having too many weddings last year and getting sick of drinking and they left it at that. It was a nice night and its always nice to see them as they have been friends for years and always have funny storys to tell. As is becoming the norm we were the first to leave! I also think our not drinking is having a knock on effect to other people. we got asked to a friends house for a night in and although most people couldnt make it I know that if I had have been drinking they would have drank more than the couple of cans they did...Interesting!
Thursday 1 January 2009
Happy new year!!!
Well it's now 2009! Last night my wife and I drove over 30 or so miles and consumed zero alcohol! It went something like this:
18:30 met the father in law, his wife (step mother in law), and their friends for a meal. We had non alcoholic beer which was actually funny because we were asked by the friends of the family if we were just having the one if we were driving!
20:00 drove 20 or so mile to see some friends who were staying home with their new baby. The baby was drinking Brest milk, dad was on red wine and mum was drinking tea I think ( we had coke...full fat!!)
21:30 went to mother in laws and her boyfriends. He was drinking wiskey, she was having rum and coke ( although I suspect she only had the one ). We had non alcoholic beer left over from Christmas.
23:00 went to mums. Drank coke ( I just remembered I drank 3 red bulls in the car too)
00:00 Happy New Year!!!
00:30 went to aunty in laws and saw cousin in law ( not drinking ) and cousin in laws boyfriend ( doesn't drink but was drinking wine from the bottle??? )
01:30 got home and got asked to 2 partys...I wish I could say we went back out but... Zzzz....
09:00 woke up, no hangover. Text friends to be smug...they are all ill! :-)
I'm updating this on my iPhone so I'll tidy this up later...happy new year !!!!!!
18:30 met the father in law, his wife (step mother in law), and their friends for a meal. We had non alcoholic beer which was actually funny because we were asked by the friends of the family if we were just having the one if we were driving!
20:00 drove 20 or so mile to see some friends who were staying home with their new baby. The baby was drinking Brest milk, dad was on red wine and mum was drinking tea I think ( we had coke...full fat!!)
21:30 went to mother in laws and her boyfriends. He was drinking wiskey, she was having rum and coke ( although I suspect she only had the one ). We had non alcoholic beer left over from Christmas.
23:00 went to mums. Drank coke ( I just remembered I drank 3 red bulls in the car too)
00:00 Happy New Year!!!
00:30 went to aunty in laws and saw cousin in law ( not drinking ) and cousin in laws boyfriend ( doesn't drink but was drinking wine from the bottle??? )
01:30 got home and got asked to 2 partys...I wish I could say we went back out but... Zzzz....
09:00 woke up, no hangover. Text friends to be smug...they are all ill! :-)
I'm updating this on my iPhone so I'll tidy this up later...happy new year !!!!!!
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